Tuesday, May 01, 2007
it's been quite some time since i blogged! i went through a stressful period which made me quite depressed! i hate tt feeling! and i can't believe i had some unpleasant thoughts! prob wif work and social life! and i couldn't realli handle both at de same time! lucky i had a grp of pple i could tok to!! realli appreciate their help! thanks a million!!!
i'm still adapting to my work now! i dunno if i wanna stay on or look for other jobs...still considering! today's labour day! haha! got my break! went shopping wif my darling yest! fun shopping trip! was laughing all de time!!! i should reali cherish de moments tt i can truly laugh out!!! as in wholeheartedly laugh!!!! i used to take tt for granted till recently! when pple's depressed, it's realli hard to even smile! which made me more miserable!!! tears accompanied most of de time during tt period! but now i tink i'm bac to my normal self!!! i realli feel tt once u lose something, u will learn to appreciate it! and tt goes de same for friendship! i realli hope tt sector of my life will recover! i dun wanna lose a friendship!!! i'm not sure abt de exact situation! but i'm trying to make time to solve de prob!
i'm like running out of time! everyday is de same routine, slp, work, eat, bathe, slp...and it went on for de whole wk till today! tmr will be de same routine again! realli hope to find some time to settle de things!!! but it's not like everyone has de time and mood for it! so i hav to wait patiently for de opportunity!
anyway, i'm appreciating de small little things in life! life's short! who noes when u goin to leave this world! so realli mus learn to treasure de time we hav! i dun feel tt i need to do all de things others would like to do! i jus wan to live happily and even if i were to go tmr, at least i was happy in this world!
today i did something i haven done for a long time! nail art! haha! it's been sooo long since i "dump" this interest for something else! and since it's a holi today, and i jus bought one new colour (bcos it was realli nice!!), i played wif it while watching some vidoes on youtube! multi-task? well, not realli! haha...i still can't multi task well enough! but i was glad i din make a mess and i could still do some simple art on my short nails! haha! doesn't seem to be a great thing but at least i'm content! haha!!! still recalling my obession for nail arts abt 2 yrs ago! it's jus colours, nail arts and new design! it's my life den...
i'm changing topics and goin bac to topics like nobody's biz in this post! haha! tt's bcos i din figure out wat i'm goin to type in this post! it's jus typing watever shit i hav in my mind now! so if ur confuse dun blame me! at least u now how my silly brain works! wahahaha!!!! u can call tt pea brain! it isn't big anyway! hahahaha!!!!
btw, i came acorss a veri nice phrase during my depressed period! "If u dun try, u'll nv succeed! but if u try, u may surprise urself!" it realli helped me alot! i'm still trying out...and i guess i surprised myself abit! maybe i did surprise some others too! but I hope i won't disappoint too many pple! hopefully not one at all, though it's hard! but i'll keep de destruction to de minimum! I'll try!!!
ok, enough of my nonsence! tt's all for now! bye!!!